Friday. 8th Feb/1850.
Mild, showers at intervals.
This change is charming after the
intense cold of Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday.
The dreadfull accident on Monday morning, still fills every
mind. The bursting, or explosion of a boiler in a machinist
factory, spread anguish; and death among hundreds.
We have never been visited by such a shocking catastrophe.
The details in our papers, make the heart ache; to witness
the scene must be painfull, even to the uninterested spectator.
Mr H. can not look on such afflictions, and does not attempt
to approach the ruins.
I have just returned from a walk.
it sprinkled gently, but still was pleasant. Met Julia De Lancay
now Mrs Coster, she was once a belle, but is now so changed,
hardly knew her. She had a child by the hand, her eyes
were fixed on me, did she remember old times. Her am.
bitious marriage, could not have been happy; a residence in Europe
gives her a style of manner, but Beauty has departed.
Received a note from my father, inviting us
to Aunt Jenkins funeral, to take place to.morrow at 4 P.M.
I was startled, not knowing her end was so near, fearing some
worse news from home.
Mr Fullgraff gave Julia her lesson, Remsen took my
place in the room. Ellen Paulding came over for her to
pass an hour. She went at nine oclock.

Saturday. 9th /1850.
Heavy rain, through the day.
Julia full of excitement, how dif-
ferent her thoughts from mine. She with all the buoyancy of
youth was anticipating the party for Monday, while I was
inwardly sorrowing for the dead. I hoped G. would come to
dinner, and take us all up in a carriage, but after expecting him
untill too late, I gave up going, fearing the inclement storm.
Mr H. came home late, had been there, and was made
pall. bearer in place of an absent friend. A small number
of friends were present, few to mourn the departure
the good mother, wife, and friend. A cancer was the cause
of her death, for twenty years it had troubled her.
I felt gloomy, and sad through the evening.
My mother, and father could not go to the funeral. Pa
had an attack of Lumbago , and mother fears the ague in her
head. They must have felt truly sad. Mr Platt was absent.
Isabella did not attend.

Sunday. 10th /50.
A lovely, bright day.
We all went up to church. Our ser-
mon on the fearfull catastrophe in Hague Street, the bursting
of the boiler. A member of the congregation was killed, his wife
had sent for Mr Huttun, to give her some consolation.
Mr H. did not like the doctrine of this sermon; he said
it made his blood run cold.
I went with Julia after dinner. G and Louis, went to see the
Ruins. Remsen sat at home.

Monday 11th February /50.
Clear, blustery day.
I went with Julia to purchase
gloves, rosettes, and a flower for her hair.
Returned home to arrange her dress, this occupied my
time untill dinner.
Aunt Varrick paid me a long visit.
Mrs Wells, and daughter called, both pretty and interesting
women. Full of apologies for my neglected visit.
Miss Chenery came in before dinner.
G. invited me to walk after dinner, I declined.
Dressed Julia at seven, she left at eight, her father
escorted her. She looked sweet in her lace & satin, with
lilies of the valley in her hair.
Mr H. went for her at 12. She returned delighted
with the evening ball. 300 present, a band of music
and fine supper.
I returned at eleven oclock slept a nap before she
arrived home. Mr. went in a carriage for her, just in
the right time.

Tuesday. 12th . February. /50.
A beautifull day for this month.
Julia, was up and dressed
before myself, she did not feel tired, but slept soundly.
Went to school, without her lunch. Annie took it to her.
I set off for Chelsea, rode to Mrs Platts, had a long chat
with Cousin Cornelia, apologized for my absence form the
funeral. Saw all the family; Old Mrs Platt remembered me,
the poor old soul is blind; but very cheerfull & talkative.
I sat an hour with them, saw Helen’s little baby, very cute.
and smart for four months oldexperience.
Sat two hours with mother; she is quite smart; Pa had
walked out. I think him very much afflicted by his sisters
death. he feels they are falling around him “like leaves in wintry
weather.” Pain, and old age will soon overtake him, but still
some of his children may go first to their long home.
The Miss Holmes called during my visit.
I returned; the Omnibus raced and horse jumped in the
harness, it made me faint, so I threw a shilling to a man
and jumped out by the square, the rogue kept my change.
Catharine dined with me, added oysters to our dinner.
Henry would not stay to dinner. They came from the
funeral service over the unclaimed bodies,
found after the explosion.
A letter from Benjamin, all well at the Ridge.
Mr Fullgraff, gave Julia a short lesson to.night.

Wednesday. 10. Feb. /50.
Mild; and bright sun . shine.
Julia went to pass the day with her
grandmother, and go to church with her Aunts.
A valentine arrived this morning.
A letter arrived from Maria Hasbrouck, and Johnny to Rem.
I am poor, compelled to borrow money from Margaret.
Sent to Luthers for some groceries.
Mr H. walked with Julia & I on Broadway. We met
Mr Pearsall.; a low bow.

Wednesday. 14. Feb./1850.
Raining very hard, all day.
I wrote to Margaret, tried to make
my letter plain. Two valentines came for Sis , pretty.
but not expensive; I think the fashion is over for this

Friday. 15 Feb. 1850.
Clear, fine day.
I took a pleasant stroll,
bought some cheap valentines.
Mrs Bloodgood came to try my dark blue silk. She still
complains altho Mr B. has returned safe from California.
I went after dinner with Julia, to get a pair boots
from Millers. It was cold, and blustering.
Mr Fullgraff came, I did not go in the room.
Louis went in my place. Remsen wrote to John H.
thinks he will copy the letter.

Saturday. 16. Feb. /1850.valentine
Clear; and fine day
I felt dull, as if a cold threatened
my system. Julia, did not wish to go out, but sat at home
writing Valentines. She sent one to Aunt Cate, one to Aunt Bell,
and one to Jane ___ay . Remsen wrote one for Sue, very neatly.
He sent a Comic one to John, it will amuse them in the country.
Julia & I went to see the “Panorama of the Nile” in the
Chinese Museum. Susan Chenery joined us with her two
little brothers. The room was crowded with schools, I took
a stand by the door to get fresh air. Was much disappoint.
ed by the performance.
Returned home found G. and the boys at dinner.
I took a second dinner Susan & Julia came down to
dine also. Admission 50 cts.
The Miss Beviers called, sat untill dark.
Louis brought a letter from F.s store from Aunt Cate.
I sent a note to her; she answered.
My blue dress from Mrs B.s, I shall like it much
better open in front.

Sunday. 17. Feb. 1850.
A lovely clear day, like Spring.
I felt well this fine morning, went
to church with the children. Our sermon from the text,
“What do’est thou have, Elisha?” A collection for the Hague
St sufferers. I did not go in the afternoon, sent Julia and
the boys. Had an unpleasant discussion with G. who
is very difficult to impress on intellectual subjects. He will
see every thing in his own peculiar light, has a poor system
of family government. Disobedience in children, can often
be traced to the want of unity in parental feeling; and discipline.
I went to tea with a head. ache, & heart ache also.

Monday.18.Feb. /1850 New York. 19 Charlton St.
Mild, spring day, hazy atmosphere.

My 41. years. to be accounted for. How have
my talents been employed, I wish the answer could be
“Well done good & faith full servant”; but alas it is not so !
One glance brings me all the past; my infancy,
child hood, youth, and mature age, but it does not bring
visions of innocence; piety and humility, which should guard these
passing seasons of life. I look back to sigh over the
treasures of time wasted, and pray in bitterness of soul
that my allotted term which still remains may not all be lost.
“What doest thou here” sounds in my ears. Oh may,
the still, small voice”, cheer my desponding, troubled soul.

It is my, but no one congratulated
me, no one “arises up to call me blessed”. Those lips
which should praise me, are ever mute; but to blame; and
my children are yet insensible to a mothers worth.
This thought saddens my day, but God gives us
our lot in this world, he knows my prayers
for my dear ones. dear in the midst of unkindness.
I have walked out, the air is sweet and the
Parade ground, quite balmy. My health this winter
has been very good, my appetite also good. I still take
cold water baths, find my skin almost clear of eruption.
My back is painfull at times, this I expect, & bear in secret.
Our family have been very much blessed this winter,
not a sick hour for one of our members. For this how
gratefull we should feel, ere we thankfull for all these
good gifts. A home of luxury and peace; days of health,
nights of rest; and bodies full of life’s enjoyments.
Are these things to be disregarded ! May we be led by these
tender mercies, to our fathers feet, for that is our only
resting place; the cross, of Christ our only refuge.

Tuesday.19 Feb. 1850.
Cold and blustering, dusty.
I put my house in order and
[feel] more in spirits; the clouds, had passed from my
fickle sun. Rode to Chelsea, found Maria & Mrs Gee in
close confab. Mrs Gee, invited us to pass Wednesday evening with
her, I accepted, as it was only our family.
Returned home in haste Mother & C. sitting in the parlour.
They had been to visit Mrs Mary Smith, and sat untill dinner.
time. I walked with G. after dinner, the wind blew me,
home. Met Rose, she informed me our “bride Jane” ha[d] a baby
two months after leaving our house. I was terribly deceived in
her conduct.
Mr Fullgraff, came in the evening, will not give up Julia,
wishes to continue her lessons, said he would rather lose four
other scholars. Her father must decide the question. I thought
it my duty to give him some warning, as her hour would be

Wednesday. 20th Feb/1850.
Mild, warm day, no wind.
I sat in the house not wishing to
fatigue myself before night. Took a short walk, bought some
lace for cuffs. 25 cts. Garret, as usual unwilling to accompa[-]
ny me to Mrs Gee. I never wish to force his inclinations; and
excused him. Maria, came down to go with us, they are
very selfish to neglect Mrs Gee’s invitation, and depend on
my patronage. Eugene & C. should have gone for one hour.
We went at eight oclock. Mr & Mrs Gee, received their guests
gracefully. Three gentlemen, Mr & Mrs [Bruce], Bell & Ferdinand
and our party composed the circle. We played Stage-crash
I was the baby; kept my seat. Returned at eleven oclock,
first taking Maria to 19 street.
I slept badly, the hot rooms, made me nervous.

Thursday 21st Feb. 1850.
Charming, spring day. mild and calm.
My late hours affected me,
so much are my habits fixed, for early bed.time.
After all the children left for school, and G. for his office,
I prepared for bed. Took a warm bath to compose my
system and then crept in bed, shutting myself up in
the dark. Laid untill near two oclock, arose much
rested. The “Miss Holmes” had called during my sleep.
G. offended at a chance remark, silence of Course the
consequence, he went alone to walk. I sat with Julia.
She studied her lessons, I read “Ferdinand & Isabella” .
Mr Hall a young artist, called in the evening, sat
untill after ten, brought a miniature to show us of a
young lady. His conversation is very superior and
full of intellect, his person is small, but mind large.
Julia asked him the colour of her hair, after looking
intently some moments, he told her it was a “Dusk Sun Set”.
She has not imagination sufficient to see the beauty of
this comparison.
I went to bed with cold feet & very trembling; did
not rest well, but was [covered] with my particular hot,
and cold chills.

Eggs. 2 lbs black tea from the store 1 lb. soda biscuits 1. Broom.
A valentine from C. to Julia signed A. G. does not like
her to receive such nonsense.