May 14, 1851 – “Muddy roads and blustery winds”

Monday. 14. May. 1851.

Damp morning very close, clear & cool before night.
G intended to take me to ride but
feared to spoil his waggon [sic], as the roads were muddy. I
cared not to go, it was too damp, either for myself or
father. Took my cold bath, and a short walk; found it
sultry. Slept an hour, my rest broken last night.
Mr. H. does not sleep quiet, but startles me often.
Julia went out to walk with her father, she looks as if the
exercise would do her good.
I went out to walk, intending to call on Miss Champlin
but returned home quite sick, my bowels affected.
Laid on the bed untill tea hour. The wind almost blew
Julia away, it was so blustering.

May 12 and 13, 1851 – “Jenny Lind and the arrival of President Fillmore”



Monday. 12th May. 1851 19 Charlton St.

A day of clouds, and sprinkles.
I went in the third story to
arrange the bed rooms. Was in a terrible dishabille.
Catharine surprised me by a long visit, she seems
well, and lively after he long confinement; and spent
two hours very pleasantly. then returned to her
charge. C. told me to prepare for Miss Hornblower,
Miss Talbot, and Maria. Charles Woodruff, and Mr Lavage
were the beaux.
I took a bath, and went to bed; did not sleep; my
bones ached and face looked badly.
G. went to ride with Louis.
Julia went up to try a school dress of barrage de laine.
She was merry enough in the evening and kept the company from falling asleep. They left at ten.
I wrote to Margaret, told her of Jenny Linds arrival.

Tuesday. 13. May. 1851.

Extremely hot; showers afternoon & evening. Everyone suffered today.
The arrival of President Fillmore and cabinet, call out all the troops, and fill the streets with lookers on. It is a great gala, to welcome him, on his way to the Erie
Canal celebration. I do not mix with the crowd.
Went to Mr Dunlap’s for a gardener.
Jane gave Julia a lilac, how sweet its perfumed. G. took Louis to ride, they left mass for Henry.
G. slept on the sofa untill bed time, I could not arouse him from his stupor. All went to bed and left him, asleep; Margaret sent him to bed. I was sad, serious and
perhaps ungentle; this all gives trouble, but who can
control inward aversions; to the poison of both body & soul.
I sent a letter to Maria H.
Julia dark and pale, she seems very inactive.

May 10 and 11, 1851 – “Looking for board for the country”

Saturday. 10th May. 1851.

Close, sultry day. The heat is oppressive I went to
Spring St. bought a course straw trimmed $5.’ Returned home
overcome with the sun’s rays. Julia went to Mrs B.s, brought
home her new silk, it is beautifull and sets well; too light for
service. She looks thin, and feels the heat, poor child, it is
too soon to complain.
Showers, prevented us from visiting after dinner. I am
wrong Julia went with me to Mrs Leggett’s, and we left word
for the old people, about our board. Mrs L. enciente. [pregnant]
It sprinkled on our return.

Sunday. 11th May. /1851.
A fine day, still warm
We all went to church, and I
felt tolerably well for me as my strength is not great.
“Almost thow persuadest me to be a christian” again the
subject, and Mr Hutton put it home to every heart, in the
most solemn manner. What decision did we make, to
give ourselves to God, or the world. I inwardly determine
to choose God, as he is my only helper and friend. With
the influences of his holy spirit, and the intercessons [sic] of
my Saviour, my sinfull soul may hope for Salvation.
I remained at home after dinner, as Mr Swhevin
and his little boys came to see us. He wished to find
board in the Country for our two families, or rather that
G should look for both.
Jane went to church with Julia, they met Mr Cornell,
he returned with them, and made a visit to Julia.
I walked with G. up Hudson St. it blew very damp.
A heavy rain in the evening.

May 9, 1851 – “The ailing Lawrence men”

Friday. 9th May. /1851.

A beautiful summer day.
I dressed and went up to see
mother, took jelly in a bowl, the papers, and an orange.
Saw Catharine, she looks thin, but much better than
I could have hoped after her fatigue.
My heart aches for my poor father, he was sick, and
in great pain. So thin, dejected, and changed, that as
he laid on the sofa, I thought his death as near,
all his features so fixed, his eyes so full of gloom.
And poor ma, to see her eyes fill with tears, as she
in vain, tried to console him.
Catharine, in her pleasant way tried to cheer him, and is
the only one he seems to listen [to] for hope. The poor
Soul, must stay night, and day with Henry, who is not
able to sit-up; and raises an alarming flinch; at intervals.
It makes me miserable to contemplate, so much
sorrow; but our only consolation is that God appoints all things
we know not what happiness, may shine from these dark
clouds. The father, and son, must both be purified for
Heaven, and we should prepare for the same trials.
Faith in our Saviour’s mercy, must be our hope, and in
his hands we commit our sick friends, and our own
Since my marriage, I have suffered so much silent grief, for
the affections of home, my first home, I should say.
G. of course cannot feel, or sympathize in bodily ailments,
in truth[,] I do not wish him [to] feel one moments pain,
on my account. But to feel for my father’s suffering is
a trial nothing could alleviate. I must weep bitter
tears for him, good, kind, refined noble, high toned man
is my sick father.

May 8, 1851 – “More complaints”

Thursday. 8th May. /1851.
Warm, and like summer.
I took my bath, thought of going to the “Bible anniversary”, but was unwilling to set off alone.
Sarah, a coloured woman who had lived with Grandmother R. sat but an hour, talking of old times. She and I were brides together,
but she has worn better than I.
Maria, came in Sarah did not know her, she had changed so much. She sat untill dinner hour, left for Isabella’s. Complained of their sick house, so confining to her.
G. bought a dinner to suit me[;] chickens & ham, spinach. Mrs Chenery, came in just as I sat down, much to my regret; but I could not refuse to see her. She looks delicate, and complains of gout in her joints. Susan had arrived at her
school; and sent her love to us, wished Julia to write her a letter.
I passed my evening alone in a brown study.
Mr H. went to enjoy his cigar and moonlight night.
I walked down Broadway about two oclock
to buy fringe for Julia and belt ribbon. 14 shillings. The sun very
hot, I was uncomfortable.