September 1st 1851. Sing Sing.
The first of Autumn; Cool and pleasant. “Amie”
Monday. 1st I could not go to the
Cars with G. an unexpected draw back to my pleasure. a dizziness in my
head, and other weakness, very unexpected. Ate no breakfast, was troubled
G. left with Mr Swain, and Louis. I rode with Louis to Tarry town, the
air renewed my head, but I felt weak all day. Slept an hour before dinner.
and took my dinner with some relish. Laid on the bed to read, and
rambled a little after dinner. Amused myself on the piano.
Mrs Wetherby, Miss Charlotte, and Mr George passed the evening with us.
Very pleasant people. I exerted myself to be agreable. We had [Anne]
music; they left early. We retired to bed at ten; Julia [done] a little
sewing to.day. Has scratched the end of her pretty nose, and disfigured herself
Tuesday. 2nd Sep. 1851.
Showers, and sun shine
I wished to send Julia to see mother
but the rain prevents so far. The boys went to fish, and she went with
them, came back in the rain. I was unable to walk as I could wish
keep quiet to get rid of my troubles. Read “Cerubus phrenology”.
I took the waggon [sic] and went to Sing Sing for Mr H. Mrs Swain went with
us. Charly frightened by a “Cow and dog” ran out of the road, but Louis quieted him.
I felt very faint, and turned pale, Louis, the same, was obliged to sit in a
candy store until the Cars came. Mr H. got off at Tarry town, here
was trouble for poor me. Mr Swain drove us home; a heavy shower first
as we landed at our door. Mr H. arrived soon after, drenched with rain, and
perspiration from the long walk. He was in great anger with us all, but
I of course, was the most in fault; how unjust to his best friend. To
[_____run] our misfortunes Mr S. set off with Charly to the depot at Tarry town,
although, no one wished the thing. Every thing, and every body went wrong,
untill near nine oclock; then a fair, calm moonlight proceeded the
dark shower, and influenced the tumultuous spirit of our [house].
My nervous system frail and a little thing excites me, leaving me
weak, trembling and unhappy. But I shake off the feeling if possible
and look to the true source for peace. counting all my blessings as counter
balancing the little evils of life.
My bowels effected to.day, and a lassitude overcomes me, but I
slept sound after getting to bed. I have not been strong this summer
and keep myself up by care and [providence]. G. is in perfect health,