April 23 and 24, 1852 – “I was once the center of Garret’s happiness…”

Friday. 23rd April. 1852.
High wind, and cold as winter.
The storm has not left us yet; clouds cold & dark.

I went to get 1 yd silk for Julia’s dress
from Stewarts, they expect it on Monday.
Looked at some pretty muslins at Meyer’s. Walked up,
the air cold and piercing; but I feel well in this cool air.

G. went to ride, finds his horses starved and
thin; called Mr [Wier] to an account. Consoled himself;
by two stews of oysters, and something to keep them down;
after tea.
I sat alone in the basement, finishing a flannel skirt.
how different our lives, no excitements for me.
Julia took Remsen to the “fair” again
they staid untill twelve oclock. Saw the infant
drummer, and had fine times.
Mr O. there, spoke of D.
Mr [Kemer], brought Julia home.

Saturday. 24th. April./1852.
Clouded, and cold, like December.

I have been busy with my sewing this mor.
ning. Julia went over to pass the day with Josephine.
Louis would not wait for her to dress, he is a rude boy.
My morning has been very still, no calls, and nothing
to harass me.
Mr H. looks fashionable with his moustache, he feels
like a youth of twenty in his Spring Suit; and enjoys
his Broadway rambles.
What changes a few years make, our habits, feelings, every
thing seems to change. G. becomes more fond of style,
while I hesitate and cling to quiet, and comfort.
Dominie St. house, tho small, was my happiest home;
there, I was the centre of G.’s happiness; now he has
many sources; and seeks variety to charm his unoccupied


April 21 and 22, 1852 – “Rainy days and the return of Dr. Outlaw”

Wednesday. 21st April. /52.

Rain falls in heavy, showers, gleams of sun.shine

Hopes of a clear day frustrated; as the
clouds still seem full of water.
I dislike any complaints against the weather, and love
rainy days. Then no one molests me, and my time
is not wasted. I feel much better to.day.
Sent some papers to Mrs Smith. a message from Rima
to Julia.
Found some dresses to bestow on little Laura of Julia’s.
She has outgrown them.
The sun almost shines, through the showers.
An auction at the Mr Denisons to.day. they leave
Charlton St.
Jane spent the evening with Julia. She improves, and
is quite an actress.
Julia went to see Fanny & Rima in the rain.
Mr Outlaw, has arrived from the south.

Thursday. 22nd April. 1852. 19 Charlton St.
Storm still continues. Rain at intervals.

I went to walk in the morning, bought
a pair of lace sleeves. $1.
Walked with Julia after dinner, and left Eugene to
keep house, he came in to pass the evening.
Julia went to a fair, sat at a table with Fanny.
Mr Kremer, escorted her home. Louis took her there.
She had a confab with Mr. O.

April 20, 1852 – “All that’s bright must fade”

Tuesday. 20th April. /52.
Rain, Rain, rain.
The Storm continues. Wind easterly.

We slept late, and even buck.wheat
cakes could not drive us from our pillow.
I passed the morning doing a little of every thing.
Sent a note to Catharine.
Julia’s dress to Mrs B. to be trimmed.
The Miss Baileys called, Magdalene, and Anna.
I went down in my dishabille, to receive them, they
had no news.
Ann, brushed my head, and frightened me by pulling out
the gray hairs, quite a bunch; how serious this makes me
feel, youth is over, and the frost of age appears.
My hair was once luxurious, & soft and beautifull.
it is still very good and glossy for my time of life,
and requires no artifice to keep it in order.
“All thats bright must fade;” myself an illustration of
the poets sentiment.

Remsen, and Louis unruly at the table. I must put
them from home one year; to gain restraint, and manners.

Mr H. came in to tea, had no dinner; teased us about
the house, told us it was Sold. A Fib! Julia looked grave.
Mr Leati gave Julia her lesson, she practiced after tea, wrote
her French composition.
We returned at ten. G. before nine.
Storm continues.

April 18 and 19, 1852 – “Everything is uncertain in life”

Sunday. 18.
Dull, and showers at intervals.

The children went to church.
My hand aches, and the damp air keeps me from ven.
turing out.
G. says he does not feel well, but has gone to see Mr Sweherin, to take him to look over his new house.
Remsen went with him.
Rima, called for Julia, to go [to] Canal St church. Mr [Ducher]
escorted them home.
A friend from the ancient days. How damp and dull the
skies look, Spring is in and the season of changes.

A head.ache quite severe compelled me to go early
to bed, it must be from a disordered digestion.
Mr H. went to evening church. Wind blows furiously
to night [sic], and the storm commences with torrents of Rain.
Mr C. returned G.s overcoat.

Monday. 19. April. /1852.

A heavy Storm; Rain and wind.

All went out but myself, who remain
to put all things in order for their return.
A good nights rest, relieved my head, and I feel better to_
day. No appetite, and some pain in my bones.
Mr H. full of the new purchase Julia has ar.
ranged all the furniture and intends moveing [sic] next year.
My plans do not go so far as every thing is too uncer.
tain in this life. Happiness does not consist in the
grandeur of our establishment but in our riches towards
the great giver. Nothing is our own, all is lent and to
whom much is given from him[,] much will be required.
I do not wish to live for this world but prepare my-
self for a future state; as my earthly career will soon
be finished. The seeds of discourse are sown, and the flesh
Julia came from school, disappointed, as she wished to
pass the evening with her grandmother.
Practised [sic] her songs, and slept in the evening on the Divan.
Mr H. had am offer for his house, 25 hundred more
than he gave. Took a vote at the dinner table and we
all persuade him to keep the house.

I mended Louis coat, and pants. Commenced
my flannel skirts; have four to make. Two for Julia.

April 17, 1852 – “Purchasing a new house”

Saturday. 17.
A fine summers day.
I accepted an invitation
from G to look at a house in 24th St.
We rode up, and were delighted with the house, and sit.
uation. Julia thinks it will suit her exactly. It is too
grand for me, and too spacious.
Mr H bought the house at 14 thousand dollars.
It is rented to Dr Mathews for this year. at $64 00.
Every one thinks Mr H. has a bargain; in time it
will be very valuable. [Manson] Square is in view & Broadway
near enough to be pleasant.
From the house we rode to Becks. looked at mantillas
Bought a blue veil for Julia $1.
She went to Stewarts for gloves. and Boots at Rykman.
I walked home.
Jane Marshall called in sat an hour with me.
My bath, nap, and other affairs passes the time
until dinner.
Mr H. rode out with David, for the first time
this spring. He goes well Good old Dave as Rem calls him

Julia spent her time in the street; to.day.
C. and Laura [Horace’s wife], called in to see me.
Laura improves on acquaintance.
I took my tea alone and left the table for
the girls; cannot wait any longer for the truants.
Rima, & Mr Cornell, took tea with Julia. Ann
poured out the tea.
I took Margaret, and went down to Bell’s; Remsen
was there, took tea with, Uncle F.[Ferdinand]
Mr Centre, his daughter, grandaughter [sic], came in.
Mr H. and the two soon came in.
We had music, and left before eleven.
G. lent his overcoat to Mr Cornell.
I felt happy to get this evening paid off,
as all winter, we have tried to get down; but in vain.